"Girl, you got a lot of faith," my friend replied last evening.
I believed her, since I also believe that what is spoken to me
through others is the voice of Spirit. We were speaking of a situation that she has long struggled with. My comment had been,
"Maybe, eventually, everything will be really good."
Not fancy, but exactly what I wanted to say. My sending positive, loving energy into her adversity somehow alters it. We are always creating, infinitely; a thought that races through; a feeling unexplained; A decided choice that we change once again. When I hear of folks having difficulties, I am reminded to create from a place of peace, optimism, and appreciation. These can not exist outside of myself if they don't begin within. When I acknowledge this Sacred Place Within, I feel right on, in the flow and a part of the big picture. What becomes of my life is for my Highest Good and for the good of All, no questions asked. There are times when I begin to doubt myself and allow my insecurities to run rampant. What causes me to second guess my own abilities and then project this onto others, i.e.."They make me feel like I don't belong."? I am certain that our "stuff", our "love lost or never had" issues lay heavy layers over us. It is difficult to see a clear vision through these layers. Only great bursts of love can break through. I strive to manifest those great bursts when needed. I have also learned how to graciously accept them from others. I am reminded of my highschool yearbook quote, odd as it is, " Diffused knowledge immortalizes itself."
At the time, I wasn't even sure what I meant, just thought I was "being different". Now, I understand that I was trying to put into words the real connection to others that I was beginning to experience. One of Webster's definitions of 'diffused' is
"the spread of cultural elements from one area or group of people to others by contact." We have contact all the time.
Whether we choose to acknowledge this fact or not, we change the world every moment. Our responsibility is to change for the good by creating from our Sacred Place Within.
This, and a dollop of faith, is all we need.
Pooniel Bumsted
12/13/02